Saturday, what another great day, with the workers

Ya see these are the people keeping the track looking good and riding around on bikes are the way to get around out here, but then most people know this, and oh yeah watch out for the speeding golf carts too , they are becoming dangerous.

A day off tomorrow and I will be at the Macy's tent selling things for BEST, wow, people do trust me to clean up put on a good face, let me hope I do not let them down.

Stop by if you read this and are around the Clubhouse entrance on Sunday, peace

Friday, meet at the Macy's tent Sunday

A little wet today, but still fun and more fun, I must remember they pay me for this, so if I limit my wagers this year, I will have a profitable Saratoga Meet, should be no problemo.

Still need to make some moves on where to next for me after the meet , but I am kinda wanting to enjoy the moment, but hopefully not for too long and then the end will be here.

I will be making a special appearance at the Track on Sunday stay tuned for more information on this wonderful thing I am involved with, you gotta know all about it, and I will fill you in Saturday, yes I will , till then peace out.

Scenes of Saratoga

Thursday, day after Wensday, or day before Friday, both

They say a picture is worth 1000 words, so here is 2000 from my crazy little point and shoot, and maybe I will get better as time goes on, and I will start just pointing and shooting any chance I get, this way you can see what I see back here, or some of it anyway.

I really do love it back here, and they seem to like what I do for them too, and if we could just breech the language barrier better, it would be awesome, and I am working on that too, just that this old dog is having trouble learning new tricks, lol

God Bless

Wensday a day like, oops I did this before, but sad news

Yes the sad news I promised is going to be told today, it seems in my living situation , which is a room in a 5 room house, so yes it is kinda of a rooming house, 500 a month includes all, but internet /cable, and being in town this is a wonderful price, and overall you seen pictures of the house and yard, it is a nice place to live, and besides 1 drunken thief, (that has made me put locks on my fridge, yes my fridge as 5 people in the house could not all use 1 fridge) and then of course 1 psychotic violent OCD individual , who is getting worse not better, and is the reason I have made the decision that I can not go on living here anymore, and it seems I am not the only one either, as the other 2 elderly gentlemen living here also are considering moving , but the issue is the timing (track season) and then finding anything like this anywhere else, as I am not financially able to move, as having 1st , last and a security deposit..., as I may have 1st, and partial last, but not all 3 yet, and no hope really of making it anytime soon , as my wages barely pay my bills now, let alone allow me any savings, as I make about 775-850 after taxes a month, not much left over for fun, maybe 50 a month on my horse's, 75 a month on food, and then gas and car insurance is due soon again.

So my options explored are few, have the Violent OCD guy arrested for making threats to us all, like breaking our kneecaps with baseball bat while we sleep, or punching us in the face without warning, and other ridiculous things, and after talking with the cops they said that if we had him arrested before he actually hit one of us, it would be a very very minor misdemeanor, lower than a parking ticket and he would be home before we knew, and then who knows what may happen then...???

Another option was to have the landlord remove him, but in all reality we do not see that happening either, because we have had the police called to the house before on this guy, as he has punched holes in bedroom doors and broken things, and yelling and screaming, but then again nothing was done, except those like me were asked to go from our house for awhile to let things cool down , not him, but us.. our system of justice, funny how it works, but not so funny when this guy actually goes off and takes a bat to someone, or worse finds a gun or who knows what, a very stressful situation, but 1 that has been up and down for the year I been here, getting worse each day.

The FINAL OPTION IS TO MOVE OUT, and that is what I guess I plan to do, giving notice on August 1st and will be allowed to stay august rent free as the landlord will use the deposit for that month, and thou he states he is sorry to see me go, and that he will evict the OCD guy is I go, but I still do not see it happening, why not do it now, well he state this reasoning, and it makes sense, this guy is unstable, and if he gets evicted he could get very revenge minded and given the thinking of him he could get very very vengeful on all of us, and maybe even try burning the place down, he has threatened to smash my car a few times, break a bike or 2 of the other tenants, 1 does not have a bike, and the same thing goes if we arrest him before he does anything and out a retraining order on him, IF WE COULD THAT IS, he would be free to be in town and nothing stops him from stopping by , definitely not a restraining, as he has mentioned his intentions of revenge before, so MOVING OUT AND AWAY IS MY REAL OPTION, SADLY , VERY SAD NEWS INDEED, but since we are civilized people we can dig a hole in the backyard for him to lay down in and have us cover him up, about 6-10ft deep , of course, my options are limited.


BUT WITH ALL THIS, I AM STILL HAPPY WITH MY NEW JOB, WITH MY LIFE AND IT'S UNCERTAINTIES THAT ARE AHEAD FOR ME,SO KEEP UP THE PRAYERS , I WILL NEED THEM

Tuesday,dark day

Yes back to work for me, and I can wait to get there, yes that is right can not wait to get to work, man that feels good to say that. I have to have my car serviced today, routine, but just happens it is just in time because my brake light started to come and off , so let's fix it.

I have a sad situation to report but will wait till later or maybe later in the week, and to me it is very sad that I must report this, but I have to, very sad indeed. Till then let us enjoy this wonderful day and go out and have some fun.

Sunday

This was a day of  realization and it seems it took too long for me to see it when everyone in the world but me saw it... or was I too stubborn or stupid to see it.

  I spent all day roaming the track, and then I hooked up with a friend for a bit and then I wondered around again by myself, and saw the reason the Spa is special and well I have to say it is awesome but you know I belong on the backstretch, working for less than 500 a week, and today I saw people wasting that much in a single wager, and laughing it off, and I saw a few of them but the details are not important, it is the reality if things, I am not really comfy trying to be what I am not, and never will be, and that is secure and happy out front here in Saratoga, because I really do not belong there, I belong in that background, and today I found this out and I am comfy with that, yes I am...

I had quite a few people say hi to me today, and it was the people who that I have known for a month or so driving around as a volunteer, and now a paid worker, and these people you could see , even with the language barrier  they went out of there way to come over and say hi, over a dozen of them, and now that does not mean other people did not say hi and chat with me, as I sat outside the jockey room watching the kids get autographs for there dads, saw the horsemen coming and going, and even the big boss people doing there meet and greet and handing off to others the special people, a few I think even I recognized, and truly saw the fantasy I was in, but all is okay now, I am do when the get saved, very liberated, free , a big stress lifted of my shoulders, I can be who I am again, me the poor broke dude who loves the horse's and will always dream of a nice payday, and all things I could do with it.....knowing full well ti will probably never ever happen, but at least I can dream it....ya can't take that away from me......no you can't

Now this should not be taken as a down and out posting , no no no, this is a very positive acknowledgement on my part and it will allow me to move on and be happy being who I am, not who I am not.

Neither one is a bad thing, I am a poor ( dirt poor, financially ) but yet rich in spirit and goodwill, and the other was pretending to be successful and secure and a winner in life, and well that was not me , as I am a loser , but a happy one now, feel happy for me ,please ,I do, pray for me if you want, I know prayers work wonders, but no prayers to hit the super or pick 6, let me do that on my own, if I ever do, but to make sure I have a roof over my head and a  job to pay the bills, as my job runs out as soon as the season here is over, that is right I will be unemployed as soon as NYRA goes back to the city in Sept, so I could use as many of those  prayers as possible please.

Well it is late and I will update as I can and fill in my plight of me in saratoga for the summer, I do have a Season Grandstand Pass and will use , so if you come you may see me, the fat guy with the short grey hair, most likely wearing shorts and wobbling around from shady spot to shady , until I find a place I can call my own, and that may be out back at the backstretch grill and betting windows, learning spanish and how to hot walk a horse...wouldn't that be a sight...

Wow what a wonderful day

This first day of track season was awesome , and yes that meant me working it too. At least I showed a profit, kinda, except my weekly budget for eating out has been consumed in 1 day, but hey, I totally enjoyed myself and it was worth every minute , and would do it again in a heartbeat.

Today I work and then 2 days off to relax and practice my capping with a friend and see if there is a way to recoup my dining out budget, lol. With his help there might be...

A new job today, and it will be fun

Happiness is a new job to go to, and well today is it, a little hot as far as the temp goes, upper 90's but hey I am driving so I should be ok. 1st spanish lessons today, name please, and it gets bigger from there.

Wensday, a day like any other Day, wait that is a song...

Actually I still am sleeping in too much trying to change sleeping habits from old job to the new has been tougher than I thought, but with out doubt I will get it done, and finally I have a job the pays real money, and only 6 or so hours a day, not 12-16hrs as before, so I should have more time for me.

This being said I may now need to find a way to allocate my time to best time for the best things, like walking and watching morning workouts  ( they are free to watch) and this month , yes a year , well maybe 5 years later finally have almost all my food stuff gone, eaten up, and I will need to re-stock myself, with only 166.00 food budget a month, give or take a bit.

1 day the dream of 375 for a monthly NS D plan, will happen, as my Step Father uses NS and has lost quiet a bit and he loves it, but he has no left-overs , I already asked, lol..oh well.

The picture is from the street view of the Oklahoma Training track earlier this spring and summer, great place to watch from, and now the main track is open I will get there soon enough to watch and take a few more pictures, of which I will post here.

PS:  For all my new NS readers this is been my blog for a few months and got off to a shakey start, but I am now only doing the PMA stuff, Positive Mental Attitude , no more loser stuff here, only uplifting good things, and if I post bad news , then I will find a way to make it be okay, a way to turn it around and make it a positive experience, I promise.


Enjoy and God Bless

This never get old, and makes me feel good, hope it does you too.

Not too sad a day today, got a new job at Saratoga Racetrack

Yes I did 2pm to 8pm 5 days a week, off Sunday and Monday.

I am driver for BEST, doing what was a volunteer gig has now turned into a paying one, cool.

But my pay will just be enough to barely survive, 390 a week before taxes, you do the math, not much left over after 500 rent and 90 car insurance and prepaid phone , and that is my bills, oh yeah of course gas for car, and coffee money or a lunch at Taco Bell, I might be able have a few , but no more than that.

But doing this job will be cool, and I will be happy doing it too, honest, great people the Backstretch Employee's, and from all over the world too, should be a awesome 6 weeks of the meet, and maybe I can practice up on my spanish too.

Monday and it is not morning

well it seems that I am going to be able to work this meet, basically doing what I was volunteering for before the meet driving Backstretch employees around town, who knew it would lead to a paying gig, but...

The only downfall I have is that by taking this, which I need income, so taking is the thing to do, I will not be able to enjoy everyday of the race meet, only 3 days each week, and will have mornings to watch workouts maybe and do some capping with friends.

It will be better than my others jobs have been in that I will be working maybe 6 hours a day instead of 12-14hrs a day, and that will be a big relief to me, and hopefully give me more energy for the meet and relaxing time too, both mentally and physically, and that is always a positive thing.

So great news I guess, as I needed income for the meet, but also wanted to have August completely off to enjoy the races but , with my level of handicapping and past experience's , I feel that I must at least be able to make rent money for the months and coffee money for my friends , if I can find any that want to have morning coffee, I do know at least 2 people that will join me, hopefully there will be more who will join us.

well soon the time will be, till then God Bless

A Year later and am I any better now, let's see

Last year this time I was living in a homeless shelter

This year I have my own place paid up till after the meet, Sept right now, so BETTER I think

Last year I had no car

This year I have a car which runs fine and paid in full, and insured,  with new tires and thou it needs a windshield soon, THIS IS BETTER

Last year I was over 450lbs , this year got down to 390lbs, but am now back up to 412lbs (weighed yesterday), so this would be not better, no reason not to have lost weight this last year, no real reason is acceptable , not having anyone to work out or walk with is an excuse, as is all the other things , like having no YMCA membership this winter or going for walks around the block, too dang lazy  OKAY WORSE

Last year I was dead broke, no money in the bank, owed IRS too

This year , still owe IRS, but down by over a grand, and about 1k in the bank with bills paid , is it awesome, NO,  but for me it is BETTER.

Social life last year was non-existent, except for 1 great friend, otherwise no one else , no better halve, no horse racing friends, no one for nothing..

This year the same thing , which is what happens when I stay couped up all day and never go anywhere with anyone or try to socialize , SO THIS IS WORSE, as there is no excuse for this , a year here and I should have made a boat load of friends, workout friends , friends at the harness track( except I never went there), a better halve propsect or two, but no I made no effort there either, very sad lonely old man, SO YES WORSE HERE

But this year I have abetter attitude and better outlook on things and by golly I am going to have abetter year this year, without a doubt people, count on it for sure.

Time to quit messing around, let me change things now

This is the stuff that I say each day I wake up, and thru out the day affirming to myself that the good things are there for me, I must act to achieve them and believe that I will get them, see it sounds so simple to do, so I am going to do it, watch out world here I come.

happy time is coming

A wish list too late for my Birthday

http://www.nutrisystem.com/jsps_hmr/giftcards/giftcard_selection_page.jsp

that is a link to Nutrisystem  gift cards, and boy would I love a month or 2 of food, about 350 a month thou, so if ya love me that much then please, that is what I NEED, not want, lol

Yesterday was my Birthday, and look at the kitty, look closely now

No calls from anyone or any emails either, so that means I am alone in this world to suffer and or enjoy it as I see fit, well I think I may choose to enjoy it, if that is alright by who ever sees this, which may be no one, now I am not saying of you are reading this that you are a no one, absolutely not, you're cool for reading this, just want to be clear, okay.

Wishing I was Fishing

Tuesday, the Day before

Yes I work again this week for 3 days, not much , but for 12 hrs shifts, so almost 40hrs a week. I must commute to S Glens Falls to goto work thou, about a 20 mile drive, which is not that bad really, right , it could be 50, as this is who I drive for now