Been Awhile , sorry

I know it has been awhile, but been busy trying to get settled in and set up, with my new place and job and finding a workout place, yes you read right, a workout place, the Center Court , a part of the Y facilities, so the best of all for me, and 50 a month for all I get , wow. A good wow, reasonable if used to the fullest.

I am in the process of decideing what to do this winter and it will depend on my employer and what he can arrange for me to do, because I can not work out and be on the road too, will not work , we know that, for me anyway.

Why a tires so expensive, 2 tires for my Taurus is about 250 installed, ouch , guess I need to buckle down and get some soon , as winter is close, real clsoe...lol.

JUST A FEW LINKS TODAY, LINKS I THOUGHT WERE INSPIRATIONAL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFKpZnok10s&feature=player_embedded


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wGRW3q_SkmM


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PLZxJZ70MQ4&feature=related


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rWoD2sQ9LiU&feature=fvsr



BACK LATER THIS WEEK TO PUT UP A few photos and tell ya about my new truck, not sure I like it, but will fill you in then

Stuck in Scranton, overnight, actually almost 48hrs

Well I had my day at PID and well I did not win the life changing score , heck I even barely played anything remotely possible to give me a score that big. A few pick 3's and 2 pick 4's were to biggest exotic's I played and each was under a 12.00 a pop, I think 6 , 3( a 1.00 wager)  and 12, so not much spent and a few exacta's , some I hit , but not the higher priced one's, the most logical one's, which still made my day not a total loss, but PID made not fun either, having no where for me to watch and play the races , yet tables upstairs in the restruant went unused, apparently being saved for people who never showed up, I saw at least 8 tables vacated, the few time s I went up there to ask about a table, oh well, never again.

I am headed back to Calgary again from the Scranton area, actually Tunkhannock, Pa, what a name, but I couldn't make that up if I tried, so most likely I may get loaded late tonight , after midnight, but then sit till morning before I can actually , legally drive and begin the journey back north, regulations, sometimes they work against you, but we need them anyway.

Still nothing as far as a place to live in  Grand Forks yet, and honestly not really wanting to waste the money but, living out of the truck all winter would really suck bigtime, and motel rates are too much for me to keep getting a room all the time, and the fact of me not being able to cook sucks, but may help my weight, maybe, but then I must eat out too much, like always, YA KNIW LIFE SUCKS SOMEDAYS, AND THEN YOU REALIZE, you are an idiot because so many others are jobless, and would love to have your job, and for that I say come and get it, there is more room here for drivers, lots of room for drivers here, actually 50 or more for that matter, but then I could be worse off with no job and homeless too, so suck it up and be happy, and even then I find it hard to do it, day after day, and the sad part is I am making no progress towards my goals of saving money and such things, again I am only making enough to survive , not pack away enough in a year or 2 to have enough $$$$ to look at a finding a dumpy old REPO in south Fla, for about 10-30k  , a place to call home till the day the Good Lord comes to take me home with him, the OILFILED work is still there and will be , but not in my current shape, nope not a chance, but there at least I could make the money needed to try to buy a place in Florida, as a 6 month or 2 year gig in Oil work would more than give me the money needed to get a place, but could I survive even a 6 month gig there, not sure I could sad to say, can not lie to myself can I, well that's not true either...lol

Gotta run , hope when I do find a place I do not end like this guy, wouldn't that just suck...lol

11/3/11

Meet me in Erie, if you can and we will , not sure yet, but I am planning to be there for Saturday , my off day to watch the BC race's and the big football game, Ala/LSU, Game of the Century, here is photo of PID in the shedrow, kinda relaxed to say the least, see ya there

Happy Halloween, A Candymaker's drean day

Well let me start this wekk a little happier than yesterday, ouch that was a stinger for sure, all true, but it is always lingering there in the mindset of your truly and I ad to put it out there for hope of handling it somehow, we'll see about that this winter.

Now I was asked about my possible wishes for my future, well owning a Bait Shop in South Florida is definetly 1 of those wishes, nothing fancy, just something to keep me going thru my older years and also put me in touch with the people doing what I love to do fish and boat in the Gulfstream off the southeast coast of Florida, ya'll have seen the picture below many times, it is near and dear to my heart. http://www.fishingworks.com/tackle-shops/florida/

Now we also know that this past summer I worked behind the scene's at Saratoga Racetrack, and boy did I ever have a ball doing it, best damn job I ever had, period, so maybe there is something there for trying to keep this job each summer, but finding living accomadations for the meet, may be more than the job pays, unfortunately, what to what to do, oh well there are options, but I guess back to the number 1 wish for me, would be a Bait Shop, owner /or worker, in South Florida, near Gulfstream Park Racetrack, and the Gulfstream Current in the Atlantic Ocean, after finding and buying a small condo or townhome, or even small house that is in foreclosure and be able to stay there without paying thru the nose, thus I would only have to work to pay utilities and taxes, which I hope are not overwhelming and I can afford to do, that is my dream scenario, and yet here I am in North Dakota instead, unable to get a job in the oilfileds to help pay for my dream to become reality, why because I am too fat to do the job required, no bodys fault but my own, but I dream small here and I do so because I wish to be able to do it, especially working in a bait shop instead of owning one.

Well Happy Halloween All

Sunday In Tennessee, what do I want to be, tough question

The picture of me is pretty accurate to my size now, and  I want first to get my health in order but after almost 7 years of crying about it I have yet to do anything , except to stop gaining and dropping a few pounds from 500lbs, down to 420lbs or so, and now I can not get under 400 lbs and this is due to 1 main thing, my own laziness, my lack of action and commitment, because I have talked myself blue and I know so many ways to do it, but have actually done none of them, My excuses and reasons are plenty, but the bottom line is my BIG FAT AZZ IS LAZY AND UNMOTIVATED TO ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING PHYSICALLY TO CHANGE MY WAYS,  I talk the talk, yes I do, I know what I can do or so many things to help me start to lose weight, but I refused to do them so far, WHY IS THAT, am I really suicidal, and do not know it, it seems that way with my actions, I refuse to change my habits and keep drinking and eating the wrongs things and will not walk any more than I need to and when I ask myself why, not anyone else, just me to myself WHY ARE YOU SO FFFING LAZY AND STUPID,  YOU KNOW BETTER AND DO NOTHING , WHY WHY WHY, and the only reason must be some form of DEPRESSION, OR A MAJOR DOSE OF STUPID, OR BOTH, but I need change and soon.

  You ever been so fat you have trouble wiping or putting on your socks, take a second and think about this sentence, reread it.   Read this , it is funny but.... not
http://forum.grasscity.com/pandoras-box/282786-how-do-you-wipe-your-ass.html

So the question of what do I want to be, well not answered here this time, give some time to come up with a well written answer, as I have thought of this question before and have played out a few scenario's that I would be happy with.

patrick

Okay 1st Payday at new Over the Road Job

Pretty sad 332.00 after taxes, not what I came out here to the big freezer of the country for, but then when do I ever get anything right. But hey I have a job and it is a great bunch of people I work for, was up in the homne office in Winnepeg on Thursday, what a place, and the people were all happy, yes happy and friendly, unffffingbelivable for a trucking comapny, just wish I made more money and did not have to be in the truck all the time, AND I DO MEAN ALL THE TIME, as I am living in the truck which is a major part of why I took the job, and I was promised soon enough to have a Brand New Volvo with Automatic transmission, and paperless logs, and these truck were suppose to be equipped also with fridge and APU's (Auxillary Power Units), mini generators, and I thought driving new stuff for the ewinter would be nice, and also I am still in North Dakota, so maybe I can set up something in the oil area for springtime or maybe some schooling, If and big time IF I can find a school for an old guy like me that would get me into something that will help me get what I am looking for, 25-50k for a small condo in Florida and who knows how much more to get something going there, here is link to how cheap things are right now, here is where I want to be, Lord help me get there , please, I will be happy there.

http://www.realtor.com/realestateandhomes-search/Hallandale-Beach_FL/beds-1/baths-1/type-single-family-home%2cmfd-mobile-home%2ccondo-townhome-row-home-co-op?ml=2#/sortby-1