Winter is still here and we are going under a BLIZZARD waring for Tuesday and Wednesday, yet in Saratoga at the Oklahoma track workouts are begining again soon, I will miss the early morning workouts, they were something to watch the last 2 years, especially on the misty mornings.

 Now I have some issues I wish to clear up about something that has reared it's ugly head again, Newpace A product from someone who I had some great times and awesome dealing with, how it got so far out of hand is beyond me, we both seem to be hard headed individuals, one being all about his business and products and the next sale, and then me I am all about finding a product that would give me an edge in handicapping, which to me was a software product that would make it somewhat easier to find some  values and plays from learing the program and deciding how to properly interpret the data spit out form the program, something that was not as easy as it sounds, not with his stuff , anyway.

I did a study using his proudct at Saratoga mind you and posted the daily results on a forum for all to see, and the results were horredndous, so much so that I was banned by this guy for posting this study, and I was wondering what would have happened if the product gave out some awesome winners instead fo losing everyday, would I have beeen banned, NO, I WOULD HAVE BEEN EMBRACED AND USED AS A SELLING POINT FOR HIS PRODUCT, too bad his product did not produce winners, and then he did something we call REDBOARDING , when he did a seminar and instead of using what he always have in his seminars, he picked the only day that Newpace produced a winner or 2, at Saratoga, anyone who has listened to one of his seminars can attest to this, as he makes it clear what day he uses for handicapping during the seminar,  the same day always , except this time, you be the judge if this cherry picking, yet he is praised as the next best thing, people to me are so gullible, and wish to find the next thing that will help them win, and though he has come out with some good stuff, he never stops selling A BETTER VERSION, NEWER AND IMPROVED, wasn't the first one good enough, guess not.

 I gotta run  now, but this is my blog and I will continue it later, but I do hope this guy well and wish him no ill will at all, he gave me alot of his time, I was even a guest at his house, met his family, trusted him completely and was impressed with his confidence, but then I am easily fooled, but with him I was really disappointed ....

patrick

Family and fear, a picture is worth a thousand words, here are 2 thousand words, enjoy.

                             It doesn't get any better than that, look at that, what's not to like !!!!

I feel I would look like this lady on a horse, yet I would never do this to a horse, never... poor horse !!!

Starting Over , or Giving Up ??

This how I feel sometimes , wonderful and awesome, for I have came a long way , but then from out of no where I get these thoughts and  I somehow end up not doing the very simple little things, like drink water, eat lunch, have a snack, which I seem to feel I will overcome , as it is my true desire to do this, and no matter how simple or hard it will be , I am determined to make , as I will always get back up and keep trying, my life depends on it, my happiness and my health are in my own hands .

While the above is true , you are always capapble of change, is it easy Hell No, but since when is anything worth while easy? Bad habits are able to be beaten down, new habits and healthier ways are possible, thru persisitence and plenty of patience, trust me on this one !!

Man, I can't catch a break, but hey everyone is entitled to their opinion

It seems that is 100lbs of FAT, and I only need to lose 2 of those piles, and yet I have only lost 1/2 of 1 pile since I started this extremely determined journey in Dec 2011, about 40 some lbs.

 Do i get frustrated and stray off course , ABSOLUTELY I DO, but i get back on a stay with it because I am determined to get to 375 by end of February, maybe under that a bit.

 I could use all the prayers you can send my way, because they work, I know they do, they got me this far and helped keep away Diabetes and all the other issues with obese people, except Sleep Apnea, which I will take over diabetes any day.

 I can remember when I was 505lbs, and could not wipe properly after doing my business., not being able to put socks and shoes on, all of which I can do easily enough now, but because of hard dieting and now excersising too, is it easy HECK NO.

 And yet it could be better and quicker resultsa if I could keep to the simple plan, very simple plan.

  EAT RIGHT , YES SO SIMPLE , YET I STILL DO NOT DO THIS CORRECTLY, WHY???

    #1.   I am close , but still skip snacks and lunch too often, a major no no.

 #2.   Drink enough water each day, about 64oz, yet some days I barely drink 32oz's, WHY?

 #3   I still do not eat veggie's, and this bother's me, yet progress is the same , I try them and they are still making me puke, stupid and crazy, yet true, pray for me in this, please!!!

If you can do this , ya wouldn't be like me

                    The question is can I become this person and do these things, could you?

Sometimes they say if you have an inner voice they lock you up and throw away thekey, am I wrong??

 I have lost some more weight and my workout are getting more intense, maybe too much, yes too much and the last thing I need is to get injured and be hobbled , but then again I don't want to be a puzzy either, so I need to find a fine line of right on the edge, any one got idea's?

Ya know I always ask question's here and never does anyone ever amswer, yet!!